Samster: Turning Twennysix

I have never anticipated the day I turn 26.  Fourscores and several years ago, it was inculcated in me that being
26 years old in our society is very big; that it's actually the point of no return or like when my metamorphosis ends and the grown up-life begins.

Who's to blame? My influences back then were limited to free-tv, hardbound books, private school teachers, and neighborhood kids gathered around mamang sorbetero.  

Yep, maybe it was too much "Okay Ka Fairy Ko" (ch7, every Thursdays at 7pm) that at a young age, I pictured myself like "Floroteyam" who got married at 26 to a "taga-lupa" and gave her Engkantasya up to become a "happy, contented wife and mom" in the suburbs.

Though I would then say, it was "Baywatch" (ch2, Fridays, 9pm) that made me realize, being 26 doesnt necessarily mean being married. But it means huge responsibility. Like I should be earning more than the average 26-yr-old, keeping a job that I love, and being surrounded by a tight group of friends & loved ones - yes, even when I'm not in my bikinis.  At a young age, that's how I interpreted Pamela Anderson's passion to her lifeguard stint.

I'll be TWENTY SIX on Monday. 

No matter how I say it, or how many times I repeat it - it just won't sink in.

I'm never big on planning ahead, but it's scary how I could not find a picture of future me- in my mind. 

I definitely can't find "Floroteyam" in Britney Spears.
Heck, the icons at my age are the cornerstones of the DUI club.

It's scarier that I can't rely on the resources I have now.  The Internet's too big, the cable-tv's too safe & scripted, the E-books are too futuristic, the teachers- too political, the neighborhood kids are too digital that I call 'em digikids.

THE BIG TWO SIX. No Pressure.

Will the 13-year-old version of me be happy of my transitions?

While I count my blessings over the past years, I'm still a bit panic-stricken.

In the next quarter of my life, will I be the workaholic spinster or be the better-half of a "taga-lupa"?

Que Sera Sera?
Hakuna Matata?

Two thing's for sure :
1. I loved being 25
2. I'll be 26 on 26th. 

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